mcm diekni
everything's happening too quickly and i'm scared as i am starting to lose my momentum and desire to complete tasks and be happy. sometimes i feel like i have an emotional dysfunction cos i get paranoid too easily. and i feel the worst of myself. nobody's words can actually make a difference forever. it works for a second, and then the next, i'm back to being a psycho. i have to stop this, and i'm still searching for the right person to help me with being at least calm. sometimes i try to straighten myself up again, but i always fall back down. no matter how strong i want to be, i still need my family to keep my soul drive with energy each single day.
