golden hair
what was i thinking?
that is so short.
miss my long hair.
but i effing love this hairdo.
MYGAWWWD.
so sexy ah syafiqahhuda
kecoh o what
i miss my clear non pimplish face.
please come back:(((((
idk maybe it's just me. or maybe it is the truth. i don't need any compliments or whatsoever. but no doubt i have been feeling insecure about myself. no natural beauty, always need make up, pimplish, too fat, selekeh, not smart enough or matured enough for you.myself. not religious enough, staying too far away, not good enough for you. like sometimes i feel my words are not as important to anybody. like whatever i say doesn't matter. like i feel like there's other girls who are way beautiful and i'm just me. the boring, no life-er, no money kid. like i don't read books or listen to cool music or wtv. like, nobody cares about my existence. like all of these thoughts are eating me up and my own personality, like i don't know who i am, or even remember who i used to be. yes, being so much younger than you gives me a lot of insecurities too. i have nothing, but just the boring me who stays far away from you and has curfew and who loves to be in love. who knows one day, you might just give up on me, like anybody else would. sometimes i myself am confused, with myself. like sometimes, i felt it on the surface, but not inside.
